Wonder where grievance that come cluster round memory together to let bright and beautiful to wash over, perhaps there are persons who pays close attention to her, a special woman in each corner in the world. In their eyes, her life must be mysterious and colorful, she is that attention is fine and smooth, it is sure to live a bright life. She so magnificent, Li Hua get dazzling, simple some characters already getting dazzling, how does woman who carries such attention walk in this Chaos world is? Nobody bothers about her sufferings, nobody probes into her heart, how she thinks as others thought too, stand in the apex of the sun singing, laugh heartily in the ones that sits in the moon are deserted, but there is nothing, except the baffled one rushes about and wanders about as a refugee, the disasters of one and a scene are unknown, the sense of loss again and again is sorrowful, with the habits and customs that have shut off oneself from society gradually, she only has a blue oneself left, very desolately blue, have no people to lean on. It is unable to free oneself that she falls and sits into the gloom, nobody sees her awkward position, she read oneself supporting, some weak curtain all only, draw, come, shake, go, itself to see clearly play. ,that's all, life but decades, shall I is it extremely awkward to give oneself?
The mobile phone is sounding again, let to look for the telephone bright and beautifully everywhere while wiping the tears, connect, it is river Beichuan, his voice is sunny. She has fed it choking with sobs, has not exposed her crying for in river Beichuan, he says very naturally, have forgotten to tell you, I have booked a restaurant of Yunnan. Do you like the Yunnan cuisine?
Let bright and beautiful to moan several, seem, think grievance again, eye socket afford to live, this extremely awkward woman. River Beichuan say you dress beautiful some, I go to meet you for a moment patient.
Hang up, she stands up, has put down rash and messy mood slowly, has looked for a black skirt, the ones that have melted strongly are made up. She like, die a variety of exaggerative eye shadow and blush, cover she not normal pale face up ingenious and Nature at that time, she likes the colored one to make up, so many colors are clustered round on her thin face, the ones that can remedy her jumping are cool and thin.
The telephone rings again, will not arrive so soon. Let bright and beautiful to see telephone is on dull.
Getting loud in the dull and calm sound, bright and beautiful, what are you doing?  I have been considering and giving up or continuing these days. Is not it very honest and kind to give up? Is it cruel too since to continue? Little Ray has already been tossed about and not grow up the shape by me, if he shrinks the samely thinly, however, I have lost the delight begun most. I can only do now, is a simple strange thought, that is to ask him to reduce weight, and this piece reduce weight itself, already turn into a kind of obsession behavior. The topic that seems between us, after we meet, until there is only weight-reducing this, all of us have forgotten why we meet, why do I want him to reduce weight. How about is it fertile to finish reducing? I will not love him thoroughly, I have not loved him at all in other words.
Let to smile through tears bright and beautifully, fly to the sky and testify, this is really a farce of making the person not know whether to laugh and cry very much. In front of love, fat to seem so unseasonable, it make everything bright to evaporate on at the moment, the proud man of that mark air, stoop to compromise in the love, perhaps he will cry in nobody stealthily. It is just for making the right of a woman of love, make one's own grievance come here.
Say at once in dull, are you smiling?